Strong Enough

Today was a trying one!!!! Physically, mentally, and especially emotionally!!!! However, when I tell you that God is an on time God, He is!!!

Let me back up a moment...As I stated in my first post, I'm not "on top of the world" right now! The struggle is indeed real. Just saying! Life is all about how you react to the things around you. I've learned this through my trials. What I have also learned is that hard times will bring out your truest character! I can honestly say, I am not the same woman I was at the beginning of this journey. So today's trials was no exception. However, my outlook on today was the exception.

I began my day as I normally do, prayer, devotion, checked emails, all before getting out of bed (no judgement). However, I had this dark cloud that was trying to interrupt my day. I remember saying, 'God please help me, I can't do this today.' I've had someone I love heavy on my mind for the past few days and I wanted to resolve whatever issues we were or they were having. (Yes, I tend to want to be a fixer, sue me!) Anywho...I made up in my mind, that I was just going to give it to God, completely, for real! I have enough on my buffet called life and I had no more room. What you must know is that I'm often the one that others come to in order to vent and receive advice (or a word, when the spirit moves me). I've done this so often that at times I've become emotionally & spiritually drained. I had no idea this could happen until it happened!

So when the uneasy feeling was trying to occur, I recognized it and put a stop to it, immediately! I wanted to prove to myself that I was a believer of the word. I make it my business to have my time with God first thing in the morning, so how can I read the word and not have it effect my life.  My mind had to fall in line with what is on my heart.

With that being said, I was determined to live out loud on this word. I left it at the altar and continued my day. I got to my workout session with my trainer, Body By Blake. I thought if I did some things at the house, you know to warm up a bit, it would be an easier start for me. My goodness, Mr Blake knows how to push you past what you thought you can give. I was (or so I thought) determined not to walk laps around/up "Blake Hill". I was like, not today buddy, ain't gonna happen, nope....Blake not once argued. He said yes, I said no, he said lets go....I ummmm...followed! You see sometimes, often times, your circle, if it's a good one, can see more in you than you can see in yourself and will push you beyond your limit.

It brings to mind J Moss' song "Strong Enough". Part of verse 1 really related to my feelings of defeat when he says, "But I know I'm not suppose to feel this way (God) | I know that I'm supposed to trust You everyday (God) | But it gets so hard to keep it all moving' (God) | Sometimes I feel like I'm loosing my grip on God." The hook says, "I'm tired of living like my faith ain't strong enough." I've had and still have that feeling at times. Much like working out, life will make you feel as if you've given your all and can't go any further. Like your situation will loom forever, however, your faith even if it's the size of a mustard seed will make you strong enough to move beyond your self conceived breaking point.

Let me encourage you...You can do it!!! Anything worth having requires work! To me it's a mental thing. Get the mind together, the rest will be a walk in the park (with no hills)! So how was my day? It was great, despite the trials. Things came together and I'm grateful for the process of my journey! Will trials continue? Absolutely! Will your faith be tested? All the time! However, as long as you proceed with a victorious mindset, and KNOW, 'all things are possible for him who believes,' you will be just fine! Be Blessed! Smooches! L